I'm supposed to be studying right now but um, who cares. Some things just been going through my mind lately and its the fact that I tend to settle lately. I dont set my expectations for MEN as high as i should be doing. Maybe its because I'm lonely and sometimes in order to get that attention I need to let my gaurd down. I'm not even talking about in a hoe way. But actually in a step out of my box way.
For example, I recently took a different approach to finding guys. But it confused to the shit outta me cause I kept trying to figure out if he was into me or someone else. And I'm not talking about women...ugh....I dont even know why I thought I could be the type of girl to figure stuff out like that or even want to. It only has frustrated me and I basically given up cause there is no use trying to change a person's perception. If he dont like me, then he doesnt. I just find it weird the reason why he prolly not into me, and I'm not going to figure that out.
Okay another thing thats bothering me, I guess I should be flattered that possibly your boyfriend wants to lowkey be with me. But I feel like I dont need to be everyone's fantasy. This past week I have been called untouchable and now I understand why. This guy expressed his feelings for me and I couldnt even reject them. Not only does he have a girlfriend but he so persistent. All I do is be myself and for some reason that is all I need to do to attract this weird attention. I'm still debating if I like it, but I am not the disrespectful type AT ALL to act on it. If my dude was having secret crushes on other women I'd be pissed. For now I will just enjoy this attention cause I clearly dont get it from the guys I REALLY LIKE.
BLAH.
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