Girl its Photoshoot. . .but wait. . .

YOUR TRACK IS SHOWING!

ok so today I had revelation, I was sitting in class today and a girl was in front of me just a brushing and flippin her hair. It was so distracting to me because I kept noticing her bits of hair sticking out and there was STRING dangling from her SCALP. Being a black women, I know that we are sensitive about her hair so if i was to tap her and be like "bitch cover that shit up" (but in a nice way) she would turned around and try to rip my naps out my head. I dont even have a weave but I woulda needed one after we got thru fighting LoL.

I have no problem with weave whatsoever, they are just apart of life and I've learned to accept them and use them sparingly. But when it has become your lifestyle and you begin to hide your identity underneath a full headed weave or you try to put in a few tracks to add length but your hair isnt long enough to cover the sting?! then honey, we have a problem. TAKE IT OUT!

I think women are so caught up in this long and flowing hair that they think that they can magically transform it with a 9.99 milky way pack and a roomate on your dorm floor. Negative. I feel that if you want to achieve the celebrity look and you want it to be an everyday hairstyle PLEASE invest in it. Treat your hair like its life or death. Do you want to die with a bad weave? no. LoL (sorry im laughing in the library)

Take the time to learn your hair texture, what products to use, and what type of hair color or brand that best blends with your hair. A hairstylist is key when adding tracks to your head. Although ya girlfriend is only gonna charge you $20 for half of head, it will only but what its worth, 20 hours....and then poof be gone, you will be sitting in front of me and I will be writing about you in my blog.

Lmao.

If you have a VAGINA please leave me alone.

I hate females. well i take that back cause like 2 of my bestfriends have vaginas but no, omg. I've just been thinking about all the guys I've dated and the reasons why I'm not with them to this day and it has to do with another BITCH. Either he cheated on me for a female or the female's jealousy caused me not to even want to continue liking him.

I have friends, male friends lots of them. Most of them are wifed up but more importantly they treat me like their bestfriend. I do not invade their relationship, its really not my fault if they ask me for advice about their girlfriends. But when I have to deal with jealous girls who hate on me because their relationship with their man is not on the level as me, it gets IRRITATING. Especially when I actually do like a guy, its like females already think its a competition to get him over me. I dont even care most of the time, because he ends up diggin me and ditchin YOU.

I'm not gonna toot my horn too hard, but ummm....my persona is pretty fab and I do attract alot of people in my life. My mom just got done telling me that my brother and I are the most sociable young people she has ever encounted in her whole life and she works with students ages 14-25.

I dont know, I guess you can say that I just hate the jealousy right now and its only making me think because I have a WEIRD ASS CRUSH right now. so yeah, im done.

Your Queen Has Spoken.

I need Love. The End.

Senior-itis has just kicked in. . .

Hopped up outta bed took a look in the mirror and said.....one more effin year! LoL

So I went to see my advisor today and after hours of calculating, signing, and discussing I have officially applied for graduation. And to top it off, when I thought I didnt even have enough credits to be a senior, I am technically a senior so you know what that means?!?

ATTENTION: Mareesa has an early case of Senior-itis and will be celebrating life until May 2010. If you wish to graduate on time and are still currently a junior answer her phone calls and texts with caution.

I'm just so happy right now, cause I'm over Hampton. It's been a long grueling 3 years of my life, and I plan to celebrate my last year in college before I enter the real world. I am beyond ready to become an adult and step out into the world to start my career of a lifetime.

It's really funny to me because some of my peers have told me that they want to be in college forever. WTF?! I can understand why because everything we do here is routine; classes, homework, meetings, drink, party, and repeat. And everything is paid for in advance so you really dont have to worry about a raise or losing your job (unless you dropout of school). So you're basically paying four years of life. indeed. Now some of my closer peers are like me, bad case of senioritis ready to graduate and get the "pluck" up outta here. This week should be a happy week for all my fellow juniors cause we are registering for our last year of classes and applying for graduation. . .so instead of staring at me when u see me in the streets, give me a high-five cause I'm going to GRADUATE.

your tribe leader has spoken. o_O

Hold On Oakland. . .

Opression (n): a sense of being affected as if with a body or mind.

The mentality of the people living in Oakland is opressed. They are searching in all of the wrong places for a way out. It is not their fault they were born into this kind of enviornment but becomes your fault when you allow the hardships to effect your life.

This past saturday, right on the corner of 73rd and MacAuthur a man by the name of Lovelle Mixon was standing over two police officers that were on the ground. He had already shot them and proceed to shoot them dead once again. It didnt stop there. A massive manhunt went down in east oakland to find this guy and shoot him dead. in the process he shot 2 other officers.

So in result 3 officers have died and one is brain dead because this guy was stopped for an expired registration. YOU DUMMY! you killed innocent people because you were too stupid to possible drive a car that had the right registration. You're on the parole in the first place so it makes no sense for you to be driving around east oakland tryna to act like you are hard as shit. I know he's dead right now and its his judgement and I doubt God is letting him through those gates, matter of fact, I hope he learns a lesson in hell because we are all suffering over here.

I'm not in Oakland right now, but I have been told by sources that high schools, streets, hoods, are mourning the officers for once. My father and bestfriends father wear badges when they wake up every morning to make sure that we as citizens obey the law. As a protection for the community, I am allowing my family to protect us and this is how it goes down in Oakland. "Fuck the police". . .yeah I hear that all the time but if you were in my shoes you will soon find out that if you baby daddy was a OPD you would not be tryna shoot him brain dead, thank you.

Maybe it was payback...or maybe it just the opression we so live in.

look for yourself:

http://link.brightcove.com/services/player/bcpid1870899437?bctid=17147773001

Love, Sex, and Magic

u guys i love this video for some reason.

http://www.worldstarhiphop.com/videos/video.php?v=wshh8y19hV0r1a2L7q0F

Not to go off topic but its something about touch. It's been awhile since I have expressed my sexuality and since its a way of life I found that a simple touch can go a long way. . .I hate it when people act like they can't be touched, hugged, or even just a tap on the shoulder. I'm not tryna fight you i just wanna Love you. tehehehe.

11 months Strong!!

Sophomore year was the worst hair year in my life. . .it was falling out and I hid my hair under countless weaves, darn my life. It was time for a change and I had to go home to figure that out.



For my 20th Birthday i cut all my hair of right before my surgery. and It has been a big transition in my life. I have grown to love my hair at its natural state but honey lemme tell you, I cried my EYES out the day my hair dressed snipped that shit off. I called my mom and went straight to eastmont mall and picked me up the most ghetto ass wig that I could find. I was so embarassed that my hair was only one inch long. . .that kinna length is suicide to black girls these days...and if you cant grip it, you can just forget about it........

NOT. Cutting my hair off and not by choice the most liberating thing I could possibly do for my life. It forced me to let go of all my struggles and i became fearless. With no hair I had to find self-confidence from within. A weave and makeup was not going to define me and I had all summer to practice on loving my natural look.

Here are some pictures of my transition:

I love Gay Men. Period.

So if you're single right now I advise you to put on your sexy and head to the nearest gay club with your girls...not lesbian but GAY men club. You're probably looking at me crazy but last night was one of the best times I ever had in the Hampton Roads area.

a guy i met told me about Wave and said to come on thursdays for 80's night. i was all for it because i wanted to step out my box for one, and i felt like being around more white people, (sorry). Oh and it was all 6 bucks, who can beat that?! lol So before me and my homegurl could get into the club we were greeted by Mr. Wave, he was the most CUTEST gay guy i have ever met. Everyone was so nice and made me laugh right when i stepped in.

Warning: The type of atmosphere Wave has is not for the average norm. There is voguing, booty poppin, and all kind of craziness around so if you're used to the black hip hop clubs...come with an open mind.

anyways, i had the time of my life because for one i got more compliments then any other club i have ever been to. "Your beautiful" and 'bitch you better work!" were sprinkled to me throughought the night. Ladies, if you're feeling down in the dumps, gay men will make it all better lol

Dont get me wrong, i met straight guys and girls that were frequent visitors. some went to oDU, some locals, some in the navy. Everyone really just wanted to get fucked up and have a good time and thursday nights in norfolk, the WAVE was their spot.

So yea just happy about life right, Queen has spoken.

I've been having writers block and went on spring vacation and almost forgot I had a blog. LoL

I was scrolling thru facebook while sitting in my African American Lit class when I came across one of my guys friends statuses. it read:

"Thowing up my heartbreaker towel and jumping back out into the sea"

Instead of commenting for all of facebook to see I text him personally how he was feeling ya kno? His response was "Dont analyze it". Well first thing I thought is you obviously just made yourself available to the facebook community that you want a girlfriend and that you had ur feelings hurt in the past. How is any chick not going to analyze it? Before all you single ladies get excited and search ur facebook statuses take caution because I do not believe these boys out here know what they're talking about. For all we know he could be throwing his pimp towel away...lol

These past few days have been interesting. but I will save it more blog post topics.

The queen has spoken, or shall i say whispered lol

Why am I single?

Just like Tyler Perry's "Why Did I get Married?" I question myself about why I am still single til this day. I know I am not alone because this topic reaccures in pretty much all my girlfriends lives. I am independent, I got my own car, pay my own bills..blah blah blah but I aint got no man. LoL It's funny now but when you find yourself humming to "put a ring on it" your flapping your hand back and forth with an attitude but there is still no ring on your finger.

I figured out that I am the only reason why I am single. I have dated and talked to plenty of guys in my time frame and not one guy has touched me in a way to where I feel they are on the same level as me. I feel as if my mind and intellect is not what a guy is looking for right now. Just because I do not want to sit on the phone and talk about nonsense and because I'd rather text the small talk...some boys dont understand.

Especially when it comes to sex, when I meet you that is not the first thing on my mind when I see u, its the second LoL. I am tired of meeting guys and by the 3rd phone call they are on some "So what the freakest thing you've done?" What happened to stimulating my brain cells and asking questions about how I view life or more importantly what I wanna do after I GRADUATE. It's no time for games, if a guy is only looking for sex outta me, dont wait til I fall for you to try and drop my drawls...tell me what u want so I can kindly shut u DOWN.

Recently I have finally noticed that I am not the average woman at my school that a guy is looking for. For one, I have natural kinky hair, and that becomes very intimidating and is not accepted amongst most black men. It's all about the long hair dont care, I am not petite nor slender...I am not fat but I am pretty thick border line chunky curvacious woman. I pretty much do not fit the social norm which is PERFECT for my life but its probably the reason why I am single right now.

hmmm....I guess I will be single until I leave this bubble called Hampton University and step out into the real world where I will find my match that will intellectually stimulate my mind and my body, praise every curve of my skin, and will love me for being a strong black, and successful woman.